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Free read ¶ I'm Telling the Truth, but I'm Lying: Essays Ç PDF, DOC, TXT, eBook or Kindle ePUB free í A deeply personal collection of essays exploring Nigerian American author Bassey Ikpi’s experiences navigating Bipolar II and anxiety throughout the course of her lifeBaTermined to learn from her experiences and share them with others Bassey became a mental health advocate and has spent the fourteen years since her diagnosis examining the ways mental health is inextricably intertwined with every facet of ourselves and our lives Viscerally raw and honest the result is an exploration of the stories we tell ourselves to make sense of who we are and the ways as honest as we try to be each of these stories can also be a li. Revolutionary Thank you for telling your story This book is a giant step towards normalizing mental illness within the Black community

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A deeply personal collection of essays exploring Nigerian American author Bassey Ikpi’s experiences navigating Bipolar II and anxiety throughout the course of her lifeBassey Ikpi was born in Nigeria in 1976 Four years later she and her mother joined her father in Stillwater Oklahoma a move that would be anxiety ridden for any child but especially for Bassey Her early years in America would come to be defined by tension an assimilation further compli. A powerful story about Nigerian American author Bassey Ikpi’s experiences navigating her newfound Bipolar II diagnosis as well as the anxiety she faced throughout her life I most enjoyed this book’s profound honesty like Ikpi’s initial refusal to accept her diagnosis when she learned about it how she just could not fathom having to take medication for Bipolar II for the rest of her life As someone in the mental health field and as someone who has experienced mental illness I found her sharing so raw and real While everyone has a uniue experience with mental health and mental illness I suspect that many who have grappled with Bipolar disorder in particular will find some solace and solidarity in I’m Telling the Truth but I’m Lying I also appreciate her sharing her journey as a Nigerian American woman given that the face of mental health in the United States is still so often a white one There’s a lot of stigma surrounding mental illness in the United States a stigma that is often heightened for people of color This book is not a tale of triumph over mental illness rather Ikpi gives an honest account into the highs and the lows and how she found some peace within a life turned upside down Her story serves as a great reminder about how we should always strive for compassion in a society that ridicules and does not put in the effort to understand those with neurodivergence or mental illness Recommended to those interested in memoir and mental health

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I'm Telling the Truth but I'm Lying EssaysCated by bipolar II and anxiety that would go undiagnosed for decadesBy the time she was in her early twenties Bassey was a spoken word artist and traveling with HBO's Russell Simmons Def Poetry Jam channeling her experiences into art But something wasn’t right beneath the façade of the confident performer Bassey’s mental health was in a precipitous decline culminating in a breakdown that resulted in hospitalization and a diagnosis of Bipolar IIDe. I've been picking up some books based on Roxane Gay's recommendations recently and damn that woman's got taste I’m Telling the Truth but I’m Lying is a deeply personal collection of essays exploring Nigerian American author Bassey Ikpi’s experiences navigating Bipolar II and anxiety throughout the course of her life “I was simply storing up my tears I would need them later Somehow I knew this” Bassey Ikpi was born in Nigeria in 1976 Four years later she and her mother joined her father in Stillwater Oklahoma —a move that would be anxiety ridden for any child but especially for Bassey Her early years in America would come to be defined by tension an assimilation further complicated by bipolar II and anxiety that would go undiagnosed for decades By the time she was in her early twenties Bassey was a spoken word artist and traveling with HBO's Russell Simmons Def Poetry Jam channeling her experiences into art But something wasn’t right—beneath the façade of the confident performer Bassey’s mental health was in a precipitous decline culminating in a breakdown that resulted in hospitalization and a diagnosis of Bipolar IIThroughout the book we watch as she grapples with mental illness chasing what she considers to be a “normal” life But time is not linear and memory is not what it purports to be as her mind has found ways to protect her from memories that it perceives to be dangerous In turn the same function creates fantastic accounts of what happened “Anxiety is its own creature Anxiety asks me to focus on the terrible things I’ve done The people I’ve hurt The promises I’ve broken Anxiety tells me to make a list Mistakes Regrets Lies A litany of shortcomings a coil tightened ready to spring” Determined to learn from her experiences—and share them with others—Bassey became a mental health advocate and has spent the fourteen years since her diagnosis examining the ways mental health is inextricably intertwined with every facet of ourselves and our lives Viscerally raw and honest the result is an exploration of the stories we tell ourselves to make sense of who we are—and the ways as honest as we try to be each of these stories can also be a lie“The problem is that I don’t remember much about my childhood and have only fragments of everything else” Ikpi writes in “This First Essay Is to Prove to You That I Had a Childhood” The admission is appreciated but what matters most to me is Ikpi is able to bring us into her world and capture how the moments she shares with us made her feel So while Ikpi is correct in that what she does remember is presented with “stark clarity” in select essays as far as the details that are scant to her where they may lack in specifics they make up for in beautiful prose on what life with mental illness looks like in all its facets through powerful stories found throughout her debut bookHer writing style can sometimes be uite overdramatic – “He is the only one I regret being too broken for If I could have allowed myself to love him maybe this life would have shaped itself differently Maybe I wouldn’t have had to wait to break Maybe I wouldn’t have broken at all Or fallen Or maybe he would have caught me Or maybe I would have destroyed him I think I would have destroyed him” – but as a reader you are inclined to indulge her in that regard After all it’s how she’s come to survive all of this Bassey is unflinchingly honest in this essay collection — nothing is off the table She discusses her childhood and her experience with multiple dissociative episodes Central to her book’s title — and disconcerting — is the fact that she has fragmented and sometimes false memories of certain life events “I thought about the way my mind wanders how I drift through days losing hours forgetting to remain in my body How they call me absentminded forgetful The way I am mercury spilling over surfaces—solid and liuid here and not” Although the chronology of the stories does not follow the traditional structure of a memoir the structure of compilation reflects the fragmentation of time Ikpi experiences in attempts to recall her memories Her recollection of NASA’s Challenger explosion is visceral while the memory is mangled by the incorrect time stamp that she alleges is the truth while Google states otherwise This explosion seems to centre the moment where Ikpi believes she lost control of her mind and gained the paranoia that caused her to want to take responsibility for the misfortune In one of the essays titled “Becoming a Liar” Ikpi explains one can survive truths by telling lies In recalling the time that she crashed into the garage door at her parent’s home Ikpi creates an elaborate story about how the accident came to be The narrative is ripped and crumbled when she admits that she actually does not know nor recall how the accident occurred only that she and her family would declare the fabled testimony as truth  This book is ostensibly about mental health and it is that We follow her from the early signs that no one recognized through the crisis and out to the other side This is not a trite book about victory over mental illness excepting the fact that she is still with us; she is clear that every day is a struggle But to present it as only a book about mental illness is to sell it short This is a book about the human condition and how hard it is to live in this broken world in these frail bodies So if you don’t recognize yourself in some of the despair self flagellation euphoria pride profound love and profound self doubt then it’s time for some introspection “I give them the suggestion Allow yourself morning I tell them it means that today may have been a rolling ball of anxiety and trembling a face wet and slick with tears but if you can get to morning if you can allow yourself a new day to encourage a change then you can get through it Allow yourself morning” This book chronicles how one woman learned to face her troubles You want to root for her well being You want to be understanding of others And for some of us by the end of  I’m Telling The Truth but I’m Lying you might find yourself realizing you are no less guilty of telling yourself certain stories in order to deal with trauma secrets and shame The hope is that you’ve taken such troubles on even half as mightily as Bassey has Deep truths underlie this fragmented compelling narrative which leaves readers wishing only the best for its harrowed author